Hey what's up,


I think I drink to much and probably too long today but hell it is Sunday.  Happy Memorial Day for all those who have served.  Or still serving.  We sign the line and think nothing of it and those around us just don't get it.  We would die for there freedom and they don't get it.  Its very frustrating when they can't understand and they ask me stupid questions, but if they haven't been there and cannot conceive it, they won't get it.  They will live there lives thinking that the rest of the world or country owes them something because they are just here and yet it is they who owe those who served before me.  Without them there would not be a here and now and they would be lost




Gotta go a child in need is is a cjild indeed.

Wow been a long time,  watching arrow on Netflix and contemplating what to do , what to do,  should probably sleep but don't feel like it.  Life kinda sucks right now, too much shit and no way to explain it, wait got to watch the action......okay done now kinda cool this show. 
Anyway I had a really deep thought I wanted to share but it took me so long to get back onto the site that I forgot what the hell I was gonna say.
I have wondered about my sanity and I wonder if I am just getting older or if I am just giving out.  Sometimes I think I should just give into the age thing and stop fighting it so hard but shit I am just tired and watching my hudband not give a shit and  fall into a life that is so gonna suck later that I don't want anything to do with it and and trying do right by my kids wait got so more action.......
anyhoo, school, work shit I don't know anymore.




check back with you later need to sleep


love ya M

FOR MY BEST FRIEND EVER

THAT IS HOW YOUR LISTED ON MY PHONE BY THE WAY

This is for those who give a damn.
I've been thinking about what is wrong in my life lately and it seems to revolve around my husband.
I am not done yet. I think I could have so much more.  I believe he has settled and become complcent in his life like he is done. 
I want my house to look good not house beautiful but  good so I am not embarassed to have people over or be excited about going home.  I'm not. Excited about going home.  I would rather be at work. or anywhere else.
I want them to have a little respect for other peoples things not just there things but how they think and what they want out of life.
Seems that is layed thin in our lifes in our house.
Maybe I should take a day for me.
Fort Worth this weekend  Austin next weekend and Colorado in July.

BE READY FOR A CRAZY GIRL

Lets see what I so with that.

M I LOVE YOU ALWAYS
IF YOU HAD GIRLS WHAT WOULD BE THE MOST IMPORTANT THING YOU EVER TELL THEM

Work

Forgot I was on call today and got called in at 0630.  It was cool though had a good day. Was able to say good bye to  a person I helped over the weekend.  So it payed off just to be there for her.  Very sweet lady.  I had to pray for her over the weekend and now I have a new list today.  One of the girls at work had a cancer in her thyroid and I am a big hater of cancer as you all know.  This girl is too young to worry about things like cancer, she is suppose to be starting a family, not worrying about this crazy shit.  So lets all pray for her.  Maybe for everyone who is sick who doesn't have anyone praying for them.
I am tires tonight so this maybe all I got.  Happy birthday to my brother in the biggest litlle state in the union.  May it be all that it can be.
Yeah I think its all I got today.
Everyone take care and M is going to have to show how to link to her blog.
Cause that is how we role.
Goodnight

Tonight the first

This is about the truth I suppose. Why to write to get it off your chest? And if those who are not suppose to see see well than so be it I don't care anymore.  That is what this is about really not caring anymore.  When your life slips into the grey area where your not sure if your suppose to be there anymore.  maybe it like discovering that your not who you thought you were from the get go.  I thought my life was set when I become the person I was suppose to be and then I relized that the person I was suppose to be was the one I left behind.  She was the one I ran from when I left home.  The one I had to change and become something more, like a butterfly in her cacoon.  But when she emerged, she had changed into someone I no longer wanted to be or maybe one I thought I wanted to be, but I was so wrong.  Now whatm you feel stuck pressed into the life that you now lead with nowhere to go.  Life is about what you make it and now I have turned into a three ring circus that involves not omly me but the man I married and the children who deserve so much more out of life than what I am capable. 
     Life is harder and then it gets harder and you end up reliveing your life from the oter angle from the parents angle and that really sucks too.  Because we spen so much time when we are younger trying to be older and then when we are older we try so hard to be younger.  I want to grow old gracefully but life is kicking my ass and I'm really tires of trying to hard to get wahat mine.
     I have worked hard to get what I have and I don't really want someone jacking it up and trust has become a real issue in life.  I only trust my best frien and my cat that is not saying much.
     It is late and I have to sleep,
PEACE be with you and walk by faith.
L

WOW

There is alot to this blogging.  This will be fun.

Here we are?

This is my first post, here in this world of blogging.  This is about life and friends and shit that happens with all those.  So hang in with me while I learn the ropes.  Today is jst a day to learn my best friend the gypsy got me started here she has let me for the great state of Co after being without me for years she went further away.  I miss her much. I'm probably only saying that because she is going to read this later, lol, sis. Loveyou. This is about release and helping my stress. So just bare with me while I digest that and adjust to the concept.
Remember to love your Mom and make sure she knows it if she deserves it because my mom did and yours won't always be there and mine is gone.
See ya