Work

Forgot I was on call today and got called in at 0630.  It was cool though had a good day. Was able to say good bye to  a person I helped over the weekend.  So it payed off just to be there for her.  Very sweet lady.  I had to pray for her over the weekend and now I have a new list today.  One of the girls at work had a cancer in her thyroid and I am a big hater of cancer as you all know.  This girl is too young to worry about things like cancer, she is suppose to be starting a family, not worrying about this crazy shit.  So lets all pray for her.  Maybe for everyone who is sick who doesn't have anyone praying for them.
I am tires tonight so this maybe all I got.  Happy birthday to my brother in the biggest litlle state in the union.  May it be all that it can be.
Yeah I think its all I got today.
Everyone take care and M is going to have to show how to link to her blog.
Cause that is how we role.
Goodnight

Tonight the first

This is about the truth I suppose. Why to write to get it off your chest? And if those who are not suppose to see see well than so be it I don't care anymore.  That is what this is about really not caring anymore.  When your life slips into the grey area where your not sure if your suppose to be there anymore.  maybe it like discovering that your not who you thought you were from the get go.  I thought my life was set when I become the person I was suppose to be and then I relized that the person I was suppose to be was the one I left behind.  She was the one I ran from when I left home.  The one I had to change and become something more, like a butterfly in her cacoon.  But when she emerged, she had changed into someone I no longer wanted to be or maybe one I thought I wanted to be, but I was so wrong.  Now whatm you feel stuck pressed into the life that you now lead with nowhere to go.  Life is about what you make it and now I have turned into a three ring circus that involves not omly me but the man I married and the children who deserve so much more out of life than what I am capable. 
     Life is harder and then it gets harder and you end up reliveing your life from the oter angle from the parents angle and that really sucks too.  Because we spen so much time when we are younger trying to be older and then when we are older we try so hard to be younger.  I want to grow old gracefully but life is kicking my ass and I'm really tires of trying to hard to get wahat mine.
     I have worked hard to get what I have and I don't really want someone jacking it up and trust has become a real issue in life.  I only trust my best frien and my cat that is not saying much.
     It is late and I have to sleep,
PEACE be with you and walk by faith.
L

WOW

There is alot to this blogging.  This will be fun.

Here we are?

This is my first post, here in this world of blogging.  This is about life and friends and shit that happens with all those.  So hang in with me while I learn the ropes.  Today is jst a day to learn my best friend the gypsy got me started here she has let me for the great state of Co after being without me for years she went further away.  I miss her much. I'm probably only saying that because she is going to read this later, lol, sis. Loveyou. This is about release and helping my stress. So just bare with me while I digest that and adjust to the concept.
Remember to love your Mom and make sure she knows it if she deserves it because my mom did and yours won't always be there and mine is gone.
See ya